There is a spine chilling silence in my room
That with its silent fingers claws into me
The room is a picture of cheerfulness
But echos a feeling of loneliness
Factually I have knowledge that I am not alone
Yet, my heart refuses to heed my brain
The misplaced feeling that I am all alone
Makes me want to give up my hopes
Without me wanting to, my thoughts rewind back to
When even the mere thought of misery was far fetched
When mistakes were forgiven and sorrows were endured
Smiles were remembered and love was returned
As a kid, those happy and carefree years
Jumping,playing, talking and hopping around
Safe in my mothers arms, playing with my father
Relishing the warmth of all the love showered
As a youth, those green and salad days
Dreaming, wanting to take life head on
Wanting to go places, wanting to be dynamic
Wanting to make a mark for myself in this world
As a bride, symbol of shyness
Enjoying all the festivities around
Knowing I am the crowned princess of the moment
Waiting eagerly for life to proceed beautifully
As a mother, the most enchanting phase of my life
Wanting to be with my children always
Feeling a feeling of ecstasy never experienced afore
Happy in their happiness, sharing their sorrows
Now, here I am,labeled aptly, a senior citizen
In this place, ironically a prison with luxuries
How my heart weeps when I think of my kids
And now, the wanting is only to be wanted...
