Suffocated

Silence.....
It was all screaming at me
And well.... all I could ever hush back was a plea
"Let me go.... please.... I cant handle all this"

An evil laugh... silent, of course
Mockery, in its worst form
And I knew that I was going to be chained
With no sign of the grip loosening

"He is not going to help you now...."
And inside me the fear grew as the voice egged on,
"If you had believed all along that he will,
Well, no one could have been madder than you!"

"No, he will come, when he should...
When it isn't too late....
When I am still strong to handle this
When i still can get through unscathed"

"Fool!.... You are worse than I thought"
and all of them around seemed to be screaming
Finding extreme joy and unmatched happiness
in conspiring within to bring me to further pain

Undeterred, I quipped
Silent of course,
"None of you are right,
For the one who should is on his way back"

And for once, all were quiet
And the silence weighed down stronger,
And beneath the pain of this new lie,
I looked up to send a loud message
Of silent words of thanks

For having been my inspiration
For having been my source of smile
On many a lonely day,
To the one who should have been there all along but wasn't
To the one who should have started back, but hadn't...